As a first step on what will be an eventual weight loss program I have started this week to rework my eating habits. I am not yet on a diet, but I am eliminating some bad habits, adding some nutritious choices, and logging what I am eating. In other words I am taking baby steps.
Today I brought some pretzels in with me to nibble on at work along with my canned pears, baby carrots, and Greek yogurt. I really don’t enjoy pretzels all that much (I’m more of a chip and dip girl) and so I tend to break them into little pieces before eating them a small nibble at a time.
Today I sat at work loathing my job, and feeling particularly low over where I am overall in my life and how far I am from where I would like to have been. Lately, it is not the depression that has been kicking my ass as much as it is the hopelessness that came along with it – the feeling that life will always suck so why bother trying. And while I can know logically that this is my off-balance brain chemistry talking it doesn’t really help me feel any better.
Anyway, as I was fiddling with my last pretzel – as I toyed with the last 3 pieces to nibble on I was struck by the fact that all three looked like letters.
So, I fiddled with them a bit more and realized that they spelled the word TRY.
I may not be able to feel my faith right now, my connection to the Gods may be frayed at best, but while I may have given up on life They apparently haven’t given up on me. It’s nice to know.
Blessings
Mama Kelly
PS Hubby is aware of the depths of the depression and I am going to the Dr on Thursday to get back on meds. No need to worry.
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By inannasstar on Jan 26, 2010 |
I read the best book about eating. It’s called “If you’re going to eat at the refrigerator, then pull up a chair”. It has changed the way I look at eating entirely.
Good luck with your depression treatment. Have you tried adding Fish Oil supplements as well as B-vitamins to your diet?
By Lady Rose on Jan 27, 2010 |
LOL that is so cool, hard to ignore a message when is shows up in pretzel bits
***HUGS***
By Zulma on Jan 28, 2010 |
I truly feel for you. I’ve had life-long problems with depression and mood swings. It’s part of being bipolar disorder. And no, knowing what’s causing the depression doesn’t make it any better to live with.
But do what you pretzel says and TRY. For your own sake, never stop trying. I’m sure you’ll win in the end.
Many blessings on you and yours.
By Vivienne Grainger on Feb 16, 2010 |
Wow, I’m sorry. Depression can spoil not just a day but a decade, and I wish you well in your efforts to alleviate it.
Some dietary stuff that I have found useful: if you are omnivorous, eat turkey. The same amino acid that causes turkey coma, tryptophan, is quite useful in mild-to-moderate cases of depression. If your doctor placed you on meds, you will want to avoid taking straight 5-HTP, which is a nutritional precursor to serotonin, as is tryptophan.
You might also beneft from taking a high dose of B-12 right after breakfast. Also give a good stiff dose of B-complex a yank. Don’t take either on an empty stomach; they can cause nausea.
Please also be aware that some forms of depression can cause one to doubt one’s faith, one’s depth of commitment. So if those thoughts assail you, know that you don’t have to believe them. Let them go. They are not truly yours.
Be blessed in your journey, and I wish you peace of mind.