Sorry I’ve been quiet. Its less a matter of depression or anxiety as much as it is a lack of anything to say.
I still hate my job, though I have hit another plateau where I am comfortable again, especially as the extra income potential is (at least right now) promising.
I sleep all too little. As a result I am physically and emotionally exhausted. My new position chases me in such a way that I wind up telemarketing in my dreams.
I spend much time (and too much money) getting the girls ready for school. And there is yet more to spend … shoes to be purchased, some clothes for Miss Artistic and even more importantly a totally new hair-do (and highlights).
I feel, frankly, rather un-witchy these days. I am hoping that once some things fall into place (if they do, please may it be so) that I will feel less trapped at my job, that I will feel less stressed and therefore less drained, and perhaps even find what I need to be a little more me again and maybe even think about finding more places and people that allow me to leave the closet behind from time to time.
I expect to be back to blogging regularly soon, one way or another, even if only because I need this space in the Internet ether too much to consider doing otherwise.
Blessings
Mama Kelly
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By Wendy Hawksley on Aug 28, 2009 |
It seems to be a parent’s lot in life to spend too much money on back to school items.
Hopefully the fresh breezes of fall will bring with them good health, prosperity, happiness, and contentment for you.
By Jennifer on Aug 28, 2009 |
I’m a lurker… I totally understand the whole job thing – I go through that feeling in intermittent waves. My problem is compounded with a micromanager supervisor who doesn’t really understand what it is that I do. What’s the point in taking the initiative on something if it won’t be appreciated? What’s the point in doing a project if the boss is just going to do it over ?
Poor sleep… I would suggest trying some GABA right before bed. It is great for anxiety and very helpful in sleeping. Non-addictive. Use only as you need to (so 1 bottle should last a very long time). Can be used on kids in smaller doses too (I use it on my preschooler once in a while when he claims to be anxious).
I’m only starting my journey in paganism, having turned from Christianity. Yet I am still in the closet where my parents are concerned. Of course, they have the attitude that only Christianity can teach a moral code. But then, it would be OK for us to teach our child about pagan ways, but only if we also teach about Jesus. (Say wha?!)
I haven’t had time for journal writing or meditation in… ACK! 3 weeks! Definitely feeling disconnected from the Goddess.
I really appreciate your “I am thankful” posts. They force me to pause to consider my own thankfulness.
By AutumnZ on Aug 29, 2009 |
I’m sorry you are blue.
By Lyn on Aug 30, 2009 |
I used to have a job I hated so I know exactly how you feel. Having to spend so much time in a place which doesn’t vibrate with you is just draining. I really feel for you.
I don’t think your blog is boring at all. Your honesty about your feelings is refreshing – it’s real and people appreciate that. I know I do
By Mama Kelly on Aug 30, 2009 |
Wendy – may those breezes blow inyour direction as well
Jennifer – thank you for de-lurking, I hope you visit and leave your thoughts more often
Autumn – thanks hun … Im hoping that some wished for changes materialize and that the coming Fall brings renewal
Lyn – thanks Lyn … I feel like a bad blog host but hopefully inspiration will return soon … as for the job I hate its just a matter of finding my rhythm in my new dept so it is not so all-consuming to my psyche