First and foremost Blessed Beltane and Happy Mayday to our readers. Most people, regardless of faith have a favorite holiday and I have to admit that Beltane has a special meaning to me beyond the Pagan connotations.
I met my husband in Staten Island, NY during the mid 1980’s and we dated on and off for about a year and a half before our relationship ended in part due to us each moving to out of state locations. At the time of our parting he was the first and only boy with whom I had done more than kiss.
While we saw each other briefly during June of 1991, we were not living in the same state again until he appeared on my doorstep a few days prior to Beltane of 1993.
The 2 years in between those meeting were rough for me in many ways. It saw the ending of a relationship with a man I had planned to marry. It also saw the ending of the relationship I found myself in directly afterwards. The second relationship ended finally when I came home one night to hear the loud and unmistakable sounds of my roommate sleeping with my boyfriend. We had quite a few overnight guests that weekend so not only did I come home to a shock, but it was a public one. Yeah that was a FUN night!
Granted it wasn’t an exclusive relationship at that point, but she knew it would hurt me and did it anyway all the while expressing the opinion that she “could only hurt me if I chose to be hurt”, and the belief that my morality shouldn’t hamper her behavior.
The fallout from that relationship cost me a lover, a “best friend”, and was the killing blow to a failing coven. We disbanded our circle not long after and to be honest I’ve never quite forgiven myself for my role in that. As weeks past I lost nearly every friend I had as my once “best friend” put her own spin on the tale and made me out to be the “bad guy”.
Oh yeah …. she slept with MY boyfriend but I was the “bad guy”, still not quite sure how that happened.
Luckily there was an efficiency apartment in a house that Lady Rose and her hubby Teacher Man owned, and while today I look back at much of that time fondly while I was living it I was in the midst of a sad, dark and lonely place.
So, I cast a spell. I asked the Gods to transform my life, to bring me to where I was supposed to be, and “if possible please” to send me my soul-mate. A few days later the phone rang …..
Me : Hello?
GamerDude : What did you do?
Me : What? Huh? J???
GamerDude : Yeah it’s me. What did you do Kelly?
Me : You mean (whispered) like spell-wise?
GamerDude : Yes …. What .. did .. you .. do?
Me : I asked the Gods to transform my life?
GamerDude : That would do it.
The long and short of it was that suddenly, over a period of days everything J had “going for him” in VA fell apart. He lost his apartment, a relationship went kaput and the major change was that the band that he was lead singer for imploded and he was moving back up North. Could he come by and see me on his way to his grandparent’s house?
Now what he didn’t tell me at the time was that he was coming North with a purpose … he was coming North to “claim me”.
I gave him directions and came home to find him sitting on my doorstep, having bolstered his reserve at the bar down the block. I remember spending that “first night” watching movies with him and friends and being struck with wonder on how seamlessly he fit right into my life.
We were immediately a couple. We were exclusive within a few weeks. He started asking me to marry him not long after.
It is hard to believe that that night was 14 years ago. It is even harder to believe that it was 22 years ago (as of June 2007) that we first met.
Life may not be perfect. We may have seen more than our fair share of worries and woes over the years. But, how can you argue when the person you are with is the answer to a prayer …. a spell made manifest …. a gift from the Gods. As much as I may find certain situations, and even yes the man himself, frustrating I know every day that he is who I am supposed to be with!
Wish each of you love and blessings
Mama Kelly
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