Hello my readers. I had planned to do some blogging this past weekend, but it fell by the wayside in the wake of a nasty snarly mood that came out of left field and has yet to fully leave. Nothing new has happened, no tragedies have befallen us, something for which I am truly grateful. It has been a lovely month, with delightful birthday delights. School is out and one big stressor is behind me until September. And yet, I am miserable.
Some of it is a depression and feelings of inadequacy that relate to turning 40 that I simply cannot shake. Some of it relates to my dissatisfaction with various elements of my life. A lot of it relates to the persistence of broken sleep that results in my waking up exhausted nearly every day and unable to sleep at night in spite of the fatigue.
In fact, my depression levels (and related irritability and anxiety) are so high that I am seriously considering going back on the medications that I despise so much. But, instead of doing anything quite as reasonable or productive as that I am hiding in my cave and snapping at anyone who dares come too close to me.
And so if things here are seeming a bit dull, it you don’t see me responding to comments, if my tweets are infrequent, and most importantly if you see a tumbleweed drifting past the next time you come by just know that things will one way or another be back to normal soon.
Blessings
Mama Kelly
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By Sherry Senicar on Jun 29, 2009 |
I don’t know what I would do without my medication, my depression and anxiety are both very severe and have finally gotten into a clinic at the hospital for it. So far 1 appointment and in a week my 2nd. i don’t know what I am hoping for, but hopefully these appointments will help.
Hugs for you my dear I know your pain in this matter, I ask Goddess for guidance everyday to get over it and to find out why I have had this for so long and what it all stems from.
Blessings and Light my dear!
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By brahnamin on Jun 30, 2009 |
You have been a blessing in my life and the lives of my wife and children. If we can do anything, let us know. If we can’t, know that our hearts, at the least, are with you.
Be Blessed and Bless
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By kathy neiper on Jun 30, 2009 |
I battle depression too. Unfortunately for me, I have no insurance so I do battle this alone. I have been taking St Johns Wort and have some improvement. I do know how it just comes even when times are good. I have even when I was so seriously depressed that I just wanted no more of life. that is when the Goddess found me and has been with me since.
Yes getting older doesnn’t help any either. I am 54 and am trying to age gracefully. It is hard! I see what has been lost in aging and try not to mourn for it.
I look at my life as my journey. I am wiser and can separate needs from wants. I struggle but look at it as a stumble along my lifepath. I am looking at everything as a life’s lesson. I have been learning to see roses beyond those prickly thorns. Not an easy task, but I am trying.
I see also that you have problems with sleeping. If you can look into if you have sleep apnea. I have it and now sleep with a CPAP everynight. I also had broken sleep, fatique all day and just felt like crap all the time. Now I sleep, my asthma has gotten less and I can function.
I love reading this blog. I send healing thoughts to you and your family.
Many Blessings to you!
By gatewolf on Jul 1, 2009 |
I battle with the cycle of pain, lack of sleep, depression and so on. Things that have helped sometimes…a warm bath, soothing music, meditation, lavender lotion(at Bath and Body stores). My friend battles with depression and tells me that both St. John’s wart and Sam-E help her to fight it as non medicinally as possible. Sometimes exercise helps too, it depends on the day…i go for a nice long walk, sometimes even with the dog. I don’t know if any of this is helpful, but know that you are in my thoughts. Also there are alot of online support groups for depression.. sometimes it helps just to “bitch” about it to someone who understands what you are going through.
Blessings to you and yours,
Gatewolf