This past weekend, while lounging in the sun at the community pool, I did something I haven’t done in public in a very long time. I pulled out my tarot cards and did a reading. I used my Revelations Tarot
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Despite the fact that Litha was only a few weeks ago I used a spread that the book corresponds with Samhain.
8 of Cups – Rev
Wheel of Fortune – Rev
Knight of Cups
10 of Pentacles
Page of Swords
Death
As always when I do a spread the first thing I look for is patterns. The fact that two cups cards appears in a 6-card spread would indicate that the situation is closely tied in to my emotional state. Having the Wheel of Fortune and Death cards being the sole representation of the Major Arcana for me point to change and upheaval (or a need for them to occur) and that these changes may not necessarily come by my own hand.
The first card speaks to my being mired down in a vicious cycle. My depression is leading to inertia, but part of my depression is triggered by the fact that I am not making any meaningful progress toward my hopes, dreams, goals. It points to my being comfortable in the hell that I know and scared to break free from where I am hidden and take risks again.
The next card reminds me that relying on luck when choices are required only works so long as luck lasts (and friends let me tell you that my luck has been lousy for years). However, it also reminds me that even the worst string of bad luck eventually runs out and the wheel can and will again turn in my favor. Fear of what may come can be wise in dangerous circumstances, but being afraid to take any chances at all has led me to the place in which I stayed hidden for so long. It is time to take risks again.
That being said, the third card points out that it is time to look within (and without) and appreciate all the blessings that I enjoy and to also look realistically at all the crap I am carrying around. It is time to resume work on purging all that no longer serves – hobbies, habits, activities, people, places, etc. that are preventing me from making progress on the journey I am meant to be on. Only as I “make room” in my life will I be able to find the “space” to work on the creative tasks that call to me and the spiritual growth that I have let slide for so long.
As I do this work the fourth card tells me that while the work will be long and hard that I do not need to do it alone. In fact it speaks clearly of a need to be willing to accept help, even financially assistance, if needed. It reminds me that security is about more than money in the bank (though certainly getting those ducks in a row can only help) but is also about gathering my friends and family around me and remembering that they are truly the biggest priority of my life.
The final two cards both show me hope for what is possible if I simply do the work. They speak of feeling renewed and energized, of endless possibilities for the future, of changes ahead that leave pain and sadness behind. Of course I have to be willing to accept those changes, I have to be willing to step out of my cave and embrace activities that challenge my boundaries and stimulate my mind and spirit. And with the help of the Divine, my friends, and my family that is exactly what I plan to do.
Blessings
Mama Kelly
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By Anna on Jul 15, 2009 |
love this post love tarot readings hope to learn someday
By brahnamin on Jul 16, 2009 |
Okay, first of all I sooooooo want a copy of that deck. Inverts figure hugely in my readings (I never ignore them) and the artwork is simply phenomenal.
And now that that is out of the way – I think you are spot on with your reading. I’m sure you’ve been doing this much longer (and surely more consistently) than I have, but I figured I’d say so anyway.
You now only face the writer’s dilemma of *applying arse to chair* as it were, or whatever you need to do to get things started to bring about the change you want to see.
I’m in a similar place myself.
My comfort zone is being severely ruffled and that always indicates impending change. Hard change if I resist it. Just as hard change (but considerably less painful and stress inducing) if I cooperate.
This is the part the preacher DOESN’T tell you about having a personal relationship with an involved god.
(And that’s one way, btw, in which I think pagan paths are more honest than Christianity).
Be blessed and bless, my friend.