It has been a busy week. I got very little accomplished, but I can tell you there was very little in the way of true down time.
I started my holiday shopping thanks to amazon and etsy. The Elder will have a focus on art (as always) and makeup. The Younger will have a focus on science and American Girl. Both will receive clothes and cute accessories and odds are a WII as a joint gift. What I lack in funds I try to make up in WOW factor.
Miss Artistic is still having issues with failure to do homework, various emotional outbursts, and depression/ADHD/oppositional defiant related concerns. The last couple of years have been a bumpy ride and unfortunately there does not yet seem to be a true light at the end of the tunnel. Every time I think I spy one, it turns out to be an oncoming car or train. All I can say is that we are working on it and hoping that things start to get better soon.
Princess Nibbles would like to now be known as Princess Nature as her hope is to grow up, get her doctorate in some kind of science, and work to save the planet. She is not quite as sunshiny happy as she once was. The stress associated with the aforementioned sister is part of it, frazzled parents plays a role as well, a busy schedule (reg school, gifted program, Tae Kwon Do, & band) probably factors in, but it is also the emergence of the hormone fairy who has been busy at work beginning the change of little girl to young woman.
Gamer Dude’s chronic pain doesn’t change except in the sense of different levels of pain based on activity levels and weather. We are trying to avoid doing anything more invasive for as long as possible, but that can only last so long as he is frankly miserable more often than not. We are hoping that losing weight and building some core strength will help, but odds are we are looking at a spinal cord stimulator being implanted sometime in the next year or two.
As for me? I’m still pretty miserable most of the time. I don’t feel well, I don’t sleep well, and I still don’t really like my own company very much. But, I’m working on that too.
Work takes a lot out of me. On a good day telemarketing is stressful and emotionally exhausting and good days are a rare commodity. I am slowly settling in back at my old department since the demise of the “new” department I was transferred to for a few months.
Unfortunately, I still hate my job and nothing is going to change that except to get out of Dodge as soon as possible. To that end I am planning on working up a resume after the holidays and getting my butt out there to start interviewing. The hard part is going to be coordinating interviews when I work for a company that does not provide paid time off and requires scheduled hours to be “made up” when someone calls out sick.
But, I work half days on Fridays, so hopefully I will be able to figure something out.
In other news I have confirmed that Hubby & I will both be enrolling in the girls’ Tae Kwon Do school. With the group discount my tuition will run $89 a month and Gamer Dude’s will be free. So for $around $22 a week we can each take 2 classes and hopefully move toward losing weight, lowering pain levels, and increasing energy levels. If nothing else it will force us to create endorphins and to socialize and perhaps that will help with our own individual issues with depression and my sleep issues.
We won’t be starting until after the holidays. But, I’m actually looking forward to trying something totally new. Time will tell if my body will actually handle the punishment.
Blessings
Mama Kelly
PS Lady Rose is coming up for a too long delayed and much anticipated visit tomorrow. It will be great to see her and chat and hang and simply be in the same room as my dearest friend and priestess.




























